Chapter 152: Bei Ze’s Story (End)

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Ever since I could remember, I had a little shadow. She’s called Bei Zhi. She’s my baby sister.

She always looks very timid and shy. Only when mum and dad weren’t around did she dare to call me big brother in that angelic voice of hers.

Back then, I didn’t know why everyone disliked her. After all, she was clearly so cute. I didn’t understand why mum and dad didn’t like it when I played with her.

So that I wouldn’t make mum and dad upset, I could only look for her in secret to give her treats. Every time I saw her sweet smile, I felt like nothing in this world could outshine it.

I watched as she grew up from a little toddler to a little girl.

Her daily routine was very boring. Go to school, end school, return home. When she was at home, she’d spend most of her time shut in her room. Even meals were sent to her room.

Later, when mum and dad became busier, I didn’t have to worry about upsetting them anymore and often went to her room to accompany her during mealtimes.

But once, mum walked in. She flew into a temper and locked Bei Zhi up.

Since then, Bei Zhi seemed a bit afraid to talk to me.

Only after I had tried many methods did I get her to slowly accept me again. I was careful this time; I made sure mum and dad wouldn’t come back before looking for her.

When I was 13, I overheard mum and dad talking. They wanted to send her away, because she wasn’t their child.

I was afraid. Afraid they’d send her away. Then I wouldn’t be able to see her again.

I knew the reason mum and dad wanted to get rid of her was because of me. Because I was too concerned about her.

That night, I pondered a lot. And came with the conclusion that I liked her. Not in the way an older brother was meant to like his younger sister.

But before I could sort out my complicated feelings, Bei Zhi left. She wasn’t sent away by mum and dad; she asked to leave on her own.

Since then, I didn’t get to see her very often. Every time I looked for her, she’d either hide from me or respond very perfunctorily.

I felt upset. I didn’t know why this was, but I didn’t dare to say anything. I could only comply with her intentions.

I knew she avoided me every time she returned, so I always hid myself.

I knew she didn’t like mum and dad, so after they had met every time she returned, I’d always find ways and means to get mum and dad to leave.

I knew…

Until she transferred to Alice Academy.

When I learned of this, I was ecstatic. At that point in time, I had already understood many things. For example, why mum and dad didn’t like her. For example, why my intimacy with her would only make them dislike her more.

At that time, I could only suppress the joy in my heart.

I still remember the day she returned to our home.

She stood quietly beneath the vines as a faint breeze played with her inky-black hair. The hanging vines were like a backdrop that made her seem to belong to a beautiful painting.

She looked exactly the same as the young woman in my memories, perfect.

I wanted to go over and talk to her. But I knew I couldn’t do that. It’d scare her off. It’d make mum and dad send her away again.

I wasn’t strong enough yet. Wasn’t strong enough to protect her. So I couldn’t appear close to her.

I thought I’d have plenty of time to grow strong enough to protect her.

A pity I was wrong.

Someone else appeared by her side. His name was Fu Qin.

I didn’t know Fu Qin all that well. I only knew that he was the sole successor to the Fu Family and had a strange temper.

Seeing her with Fu Qin, my heart felt like it was being sliced apart by knives, but I could only silently watch them.

Watched as she walked towards someone else.

There were times when I bitterly wondered, ‘Why did I have to be the son of the Bei Family?’

Had I not been, I wouldn’t have had to care about so many things. All I would’ve needed to do was stand by her side and tell her, “I like you.”

But, I couldn’t even do that.

On that day on Mt. Shaoyang, the reason I was trapped in the mountains was because I was worried about her. I ignored Ji Xiaoyu’s attempts to dissuade me and stubbornly tried to make my way off the mountain.

But because the road was slippery and it was dark, I ended up injuring myself.

In the hospital, I learned she and Fu Qin were staying on the floor just above mine. I also learned from Ji Xiaoyu that she was the one who rescued Fu Qin.

I’ll admit, I was jealous then. They had only known each other for a few days, yet she was able to risk her life to save his?

But she left the country not long after that.

The period of time when she was out of the country was the darkest period of my life.

Bei Enterprises was grievously wounded, facing enemies on all sides.

At that time, there was a girl who stood by my side against all odds.

I remembered her, because she had once appeared by that person’s side.

This girl was called Lin Yin.

But I didn’t need her, so I tried to scare her away by making life difficult for her. Yet she persisted in staying. No matter what I did, she’d simply take it in silence.

She was by my side when I was at my lowest. She was with me when I experienced the cruelties of the human heart. She ate the worst meals I had ever tasted, just to be by my side. She even took a beating together with me…

She participated in the most difficult period of my life. When I learned she threatened the Lin Family with suicide to help me, the heartache I felt for her far exceeded my shock.

I think that was when I decided to let go of the past.

The girl that I needed to protect had appeared.

I swore an oath to the Lin Family that I would give Lin Yin a splendorous wedding in five years time.

They provided me with capital, the capital I needed to rise again.

And all of this, was because of her. Lin Yin.

I hadn’t expected to see that person again three years later. I had thought we’d never meet again in this life.

She hadn’t changed at all in these three years. Standing next to Fu Qin, she looked… right.

I felt freed then.

Since she was doing alright, what was there for me to be worried about?

One heart could not hold two people.

The person I loved now was Lin Yin, the girl who had given me the chance to live again. So, I could only seal up that period of youthful infatuation, one that would never see the light of day until, perhaps, the day of my death.

Once upon a time, I liked Bei Zhi.

But on the night of our wedding, Lin Yin told me that the reason why she was able to come to my aid without hesitation was because that person had told her, “Go do whatever you want to. Even if you lose it all, I can help you get back to the start.”

Lin Yin told me, “I believed her. So, I was able to place all my bets on you.”

I… didn’t know what to say. It turned out that everything I owned now, was given by her.

Without her words, Lin Yin would’ve given up on me due to pressure from her family.

Without her words, Lin Yin wouldn’t have threatened them with suicide if they didn’t help me.

Without her words, I wouldn’t have been able to marry Lin Yin; I wouldn’t have been able to have a wife who loves me far more than I love her.

All news of that person, I learned from Lin Yin. Lin Yin seemed to like her a lot; every time she mentioned that person, she’d always be more excited than even when she sees me!

Every time, I’m at a loss as to laugh or cry.

I really doubt that the young woman who swore she liked me was her. No matter how I look at it, it seems like the real reason she married me was for the sake of getting closer to her.

I’ll be honest, I was jealous. Even though the two of you haven’t met in years, your relationship was just the same as before.

Bei Zhi,

Thank you. Thank you for leaving behind such a heavy mark in my world.

The thing I regret the most, was not having the courage to court you while I still liked you.

-Bei Ze

Author’s Note:

Update to thank the babes who’ve donated~

Lalalalala, try and make a guess what the next world will be like?

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  1. Sen · Jul 18, 2021

    Every time I reread this chap, I'd always thought this guy is so pitiful, even until the end he just seem to get short end of the stick, the most pitiful ml of all world arcs tbh.

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  2. P-Orc · Jul 13, 2020

    [When I was 13, I overheard mum and dad talking. They wanted to send her away, because she wasn’t their child.] So he KNEW that she wasn't his adopted sister! But he didn't make any moves to help her during the novel before Shi Sheng took over?

    But.. this chapter seemed to have redeemed him even a bit more.. A bittersweet ending to his first love (a.k.a. Bei Zhi/Shi Sheng). :'))
    That's all I can say. Yeah, if the real Bei Zhi know, she'd have probably cried at how their end didn't seem to go well. A truly tragic love.

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  3. Anonymous · Jul 6, 2020

    Why are the side characters short recollections always so sad ; _;

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  4. drenlith · Dec 6, 2019

    omg that was so heartbreaking. I wish original host had a way to know that T^T Shi sheng would probably just shake her head and say how stupid he was

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  5. Anonymous · Oct 23, 2019

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  6. Potatooo · Jun 15, 2019

    It's alright Bai Ze, you have someone now. 😊 I cried 😂

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  7. Romeo27 · Apr 21, 2019

    Bai ze baby, your words is deep. It give light to my dark heart

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  8. bookwyrmfangirl · Mar 22, 2019

    Awww~ good ending! Surprisingly, it turns out that these original ML aren’t scum?

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  9. Noelleta Cappuccino · Mar 22, 2019

    My hurts.....but also....
    I love that they had a good ending.

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  10. Ani · Jan 13, 2019

    This is the first time the male lead wasn't evil... And actually likeable
    But then again I'm weak to forbidden love stories :$

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  11. N · Nov 23, 2018

    Her mission was only to destroy Gao dude right?
    Too bad for Bai Ze, he won’t never found the truth behind the dark period of his life.

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  12. Tzeneth · Oct 19, 2018

    After reading this I’m kind of confused. Why did she lose so many morality points this cycle? It seems like she actually did some good. Maybe intentionality is tied to morality points? Although that wouldn’t make sense since it doesn’t match with her intentions on the one time she actually GAINED morality points.

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  13. Anonymous · Jul 11, 2018

    Thanks for the work!

    AHAHAHAHAHAHA so even with some minor changes, as long as the Original Bei Zhi didnt show her ugly side by trying to keep JX out and doing all that stupidness at the wrong times, she woulda won her "brother"'s heart and lived fairly happily. This just goes to show folks that if you love someone, make it clear to them and then give them space to breathe and if they love you back, they will come to you on their own.

    You can always murder their friends and family that get in the way later if they chose wrongly.

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  14. Icelle · Apr 28, 2018

    He's so sweet, I ending up crying 😭😭 while I'm reading this chapter

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  15. HavingYuriWithdrawals · Apr 28, 2018

    anyway I wished for yuri and this ended in kind of bittersweet yuri or let me at least be delusional thanks

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  16. Bloop · Apr 26, 2018

    Awww thats so sweet. I'm glad he ended up with her. They both truly deserved it.

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  17. ExQAlph03 · Apr 26, 2018

    oh my!!!
    This is really great!! Well, I must say that the male mc of this world is much more good than the others that also has a modern world setting. I don't know if I'm remembering right though, lol.

    --- Thanks for the chapter~ ^^

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  18. Anonymous · Apr 25, 2018

    I'm happy that he got a nice ending, as he was only mean in a childish sense, and the real horrors instead befell Ji Xiaoyu as she was the one who manipulated him, and was a terrible person, though I do wish I could have strangled her father. Not even Ji Xiaoyu deserved that.

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  19. Reader · Apr 25, 2018

    Bei Zhi wasn't that bad even before. And now with this backstory it's amazing that he's satisfied with past love being past love and valuing the Lin Yin the girl that's been with him. Thanks for the chapter!

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  20. :3 your great grandpa · Apr 25, 2018

    So excited for the next arc! Thanks for translating everything so far👍

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  21. Anonymous · Apr 25, 2018

    it s too late son. Btw author, it s better to hear fu qin side story than bei ze, who we pretty much understand from the middle of the story. I mean he marry Bei zhi without getting sex at all ?? That s kinda suck lol

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  22. Bellmarst · Apr 25, 2018

    To be honest, they are many male leads like him who wants to make the fl jealous so they date someone else or they are mean, very mean, but later on redeem themselves. I always feel mad with these male leads. I mean come on! You don’t treat someone you love like garbage. But, I feel bad for the previous Bei Zhi.

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  23. Shelwyn · Apr 25, 2018

    Meh they're all dead and unimportant side characters anyway.

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  24. Anonymous · Apr 25, 2018


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  25. Anonymous · Apr 25, 2018

    Thanks for the chapter!

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  26. Devilicious_Female · Apr 25, 2018

    That was sad, really sad, but it's pretty much relatable to almost every person who regrets not being able to be with that person.

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  27. 张梅 · Apr 25, 2018

    That wasn’t so bad. A nice ending for the ML for once.
    Thanks for the chapter!

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  28. that it..............hmmm..........and i hate him....hee
    thank anyway....

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  29. AoiLover · Apr 25, 2018

    The only thing i don't like about him is he dated ji xiaoyu and that time was too hateful

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  30. Rin007 · Apr 25, 2018

    Author, how can you just ignore all those times he acted like a Dick to her when the other girl was around?!

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  31. Nea-er · Apr 25, 2018

    A Male lead that we can like, I feel bad for him that he never got to tell his feelings.

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  32. ricecal · Apr 25, 2018

    Thank you very much

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  33. Anonymous · Apr 25, 2018

    Wao, thats heavy....😧

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  34. Lily Anne · Apr 25, 2018

    Wuu wuuu, I really pity him 😭 😭

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  35. MasterP · Apr 25, 2018

    All is well that ends well

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  36. Nazgand · Apr 25, 2018


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  37. Anonymous · Apr 25, 2018


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  38. bark bark · Apr 25, 2018

    Bless his little soul.

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  39. Anonymous · Apr 25, 2018

    love it

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  41. LATI · Apr 24, 2018

    Thank you!

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  42. GonZ · Apr 24, 2018

    Meatbun Delivery~
    Thank you for the chapter ( ●w●)

    *wipes tear*
    That was a good ending..

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  43. XD · Apr 24, 2018

    I am so glad that he gets such a happy ending.

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  44. theragingpanda · Apr 24, 2018

    Bei Ze ㅠㅠ tbh, SS is LY first love. LOLOLOL jk Bei Ze ㅠㅠ

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  45. Mushroom Head · Apr 24, 2018

    I'm probably one of those people who's still shipping Lin Yin and Bei Zhi

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  46. Yaoiwhyyaoi · Apr 24, 2018

    Lol, ouch that was hilarious and quite sad. They married each other, but who they both truly loved was Bei Zhi lol, which I guess, makes them a perfect match for each other.

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  47. Confused blob · Apr 24, 2018

    But I still don't get why he was with Ji XiaoYu in the last life, and why he was still kinda with Ji XiaoYo this life???

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  48. Vannie · Apr 24, 2018

    I guess every character has their own story, i would have said there's no medicine for regret, but he got his own HE, so I don't think he needs to take his meds

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  49. Libraryrocker · Apr 24, 2018

    Sci-fi mechanical world?

    Bei Ze is actually a huge cutie. XD XD XD


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  50. Sam · Apr 24, 2018

    thanks for translating!

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  51. Chuu · Apr 24, 2018

    Bei Zhi and Lin Yin would have been great.

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  52. Infinitely Yours · Apr 24, 2018

    I'm most curious about how Fu Qin's mind work.

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  54. Anonymous · Apr 24, 2018

    *dabs eyes to stop tears*

    In other news, NEW ARC!

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  55. Danwoo · Apr 24, 2018

    Thanks for the chapter!

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  56. kirindas · Apr 24, 2018

    Thanks for the new chapter! Slightly bitter, but also very sweet chapter about Bei Ze. I enjoyed it quite a bit.

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  57. Pan · Apr 24, 2018

    Lin Yin....
    She should have end with Shi Sheng!

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  58. Stephanie · Apr 24, 2018

    Thanks for the chapter

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  59. Sweets · Apr 24, 2018

    ohhhh i like this pov from bei ze. and thanks for your intro notes, by the way. such interesting little nuggets. :) looking forward to the next arc.

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  61. Tanzmoon · Apr 24, 2018

    I actually am a bit speechless. So if he liked him then in the original workd/plot how could he be so cruel to original Bei zhi? 🤔

    It doesn’t seem like he actually loved her perhaps it was youthful infatuation.

    Thank you for your hard work. Really love this novel, and always looking forward to updates.

    -another silent lurker

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    • GonZ · Apr 24, 2018

      He probably started feeling hurt knowing that the little sister and the girl he love can be so cruel and starts with admonishing her gently(by protecting Ji Xiaoyu) but overtime it escalates and his love for her dried out..

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  62. Pizuya · Apr 24, 2018

    Oh wow, that was really sweet. A really nice shift in mood compared to the previous chapter; my god was that horrid.

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